Sunday, February 17, 2008
Transition
I like change. Before those who know me laugh at that, I like the variety of new environments or new places. But I have a hard time with transition. It involves so much work. And I'm a conservative person when it comes to risk.
So, here I find myself, at another new phase in life. I don't mean the fact that I'm married less than 2 years and we're living with our blended family of 3 boys - aged 10, 17, 20. I mean that I now have an upcoming change in my professional life.
I often agonize over major decisions. I want to be impulsive, but I look at things from so many angles when they impact finances and business. When the option to start the restaurant was proposed, I was the one who took the longest to say yes, because I saw the risk and the tip of iceberg of work that it would require. It is way more difficult than I initially thought, and I thought it would be fairly time consuming. Let's just say "consuming" is the word to describe it.
This last few months it has been difficult to have a life with the demands of my work contracts and juggling the restaurant as well. Something has had to give, and it has been difficult to come to the decision about that, because I need the money from my contracts. But I, the non-risk person, have had to come to a conclusion. I have given notice at one of my contracts where I work 3 days a week. I'll be spending more time at the restaurant, where I'll be able to help cook for lunch rushes, do the books there rather than at home (hopefully) and continue with administrative and creative input. I don't know that this will reduce my workload, because I tend to have a brain that spins about work stuff, but it is at least more of a streamlining of my life.
If I said that this change hasn't caused me some anxiety I would be lying. It means a change to the uncertain. It isn't "safe", because the restaurant is new and we have to figure out where my pay will come from.
I have had a lot of change in my life this last few years, and none of it is boring! But despite that, it is good. I have a patient loving husband, kids who love me (and vice versa), and never a dull moment. But honestly, I could use a couple of good shopping trips......for something other than massive quantities of groceries.
So, here I find myself, at another new phase in life. I don't mean the fact that I'm married less than 2 years and we're living with our blended family of 3 boys - aged 10, 17, 20. I mean that I now have an upcoming change in my professional life.
I often agonize over major decisions. I want to be impulsive, but I look at things from so many angles when they impact finances and business. When the option to start the restaurant was proposed, I was the one who took the longest to say yes, because I saw the risk and the tip of iceberg of work that it would require. It is way more difficult than I initially thought, and I thought it would be fairly time consuming. Let's just say "consuming" is the word to describe it.
This last few months it has been difficult to have a life with the demands of my work contracts and juggling the restaurant as well. Something has had to give, and it has been difficult to come to the decision about that, because I need the money from my contracts. But I, the non-risk person, have had to come to a conclusion. I have given notice at one of my contracts where I work 3 days a week. I'll be spending more time at the restaurant, where I'll be able to help cook for lunch rushes, do the books there rather than at home (hopefully) and continue with administrative and creative input. I don't know that this will reduce my workload, because I tend to have a brain that spins about work stuff, but it is at least more of a streamlining of my life.
If I said that this change hasn't caused me some anxiety I would be lying. It means a change to the uncertain. It isn't "safe", because the restaurant is new and we have to figure out where my pay will come from.
I have had a lot of change in my life this last few years, and none of it is boring! But despite that, it is good. I have a patient loving husband, kids who love me (and vice versa), and never a dull moment. But honestly, I could use a couple of good shopping trips......for something other than massive quantities of groceries.
// posted by Annette @ 11:52 a.m. 
