be-musings

After documenting strengths and weaknesses, I moved on to fears. This was a good step in realizing some things I need to let go of.
Fears:
Dreaming, hope, bleak public future, being labelled negatively, death of a family member.
Oh, I could go on longer about fears. I've talked about lack of control. I've come to realize that for me, is the basis of my fears. I can't dream because I can't make the dreams happen. The future looks bleak because people influence the future and their behaviour can't be predicted. Death of a family member is inevitable, but the timing and method of it is uncontrollable.
I know that Christ is the victor in everything and we are in Him. For now, I'm being honest about what is at the base of humankind. Those things we don't give utterance to but think about as we lay in bed in the dark.
So, with these fears in mind, what I need to give up has become so clear. They are:
preoccupation with the opinion of others about me or my life; worry; criticizing myself for not being "good enough" or as good as some others in anything; FEAR...of the past, the present, the future.
Let's leave it there for now. More later.