Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I am....
I alluded to the fact that I have recently done more self-assessment, and some of it is due to recent work search and career planning assessments. What is it with adults and introspection? Is it my imagination, or are youth less occupied with compiling and reviewing their list of faults and worries. Do you remember when you were a youth? What were you like?
I was always aware that I wasn't cool. I was the kid who didn't play sports at lunch, or go to the smoke pit, or buy things from the corner store. I spent time with a singular friend, or called someone from the school phone (just to say that I missed them) or did homework in the library so that I didn't have so much to do that night. School wasn't for socializing, church was. I didn't dress cool, say cool things, didn't watch Rocky Horror Picture Show or Mr. Bill on Saturday Night Live (or whatever it was on). I'm still not cool. I'm very introspective, jovial, somewhat isolated. There are other things that I am, and those things are strengths.
I'm: organized, a trouble-shooter, self-aware, thoughtful of others, have a strong emphasis on integrity, have a heart for God's work with others, use praise and affirmation with others, have creative tendencies. I know that along with these traits I have many faults. They are pointed out to me or to others about me on a frequent basis. I remember them more than I remember the good things.
I might write my faults in a post. That will take courage...or insanity. For now, this step is important. Not for bragging, but for using in the beginning, middle and end of self-evaluation.
You see, I too easily get caught in what's wrong with me, and not what's right. I think about what I'm not doing rather than what I am. About the standard I have set for myself that I'm not achieving rather than celebrating where I am in relation to where I was. About how little education I have rather than the things I have learned. It's easy to talk about what we aren't. It can be perceived as negative ego to talk about what we are.
Join me in the self-confession of yours. It's not vain. It's healthy. It's important for your next step, whichever direction that it takes you.
I was always aware that I wasn't cool. I was the kid who didn't play sports at lunch, or go to the smoke pit, or buy things from the corner store. I spent time with a singular friend, or called someone from the school phone (just to say that I missed them) or did homework in the library so that I didn't have so much to do that night. School wasn't for socializing, church was. I didn't dress cool, say cool things, didn't watch Rocky Horror Picture Show or Mr. Bill on Saturday Night Live (or whatever it was on). I'm still not cool. I'm very introspective, jovial, somewhat isolated. There are other things that I am, and those things are strengths.
I'm: organized, a trouble-shooter, self-aware, thoughtful of others, have a strong emphasis on integrity, have a heart for God's work with others, use praise and affirmation with others, have creative tendencies. I know that along with these traits I have many faults. They are pointed out to me or to others about me on a frequent basis. I remember them more than I remember the good things.
I might write my faults in a post. That will take courage...or insanity. For now, this step is important. Not for bragging, but for using in the beginning, middle and end of self-evaluation.
You see, I too easily get caught in what's wrong with me, and not what's right. I think about what I'm not doing rather than what I am. About the standard I have set for myself that I'm not achieving rather than celebrating where I am in relation to where I was. About how little education I have rather than the things I have learned. It's easy to talk about what we aren't. It can be perceived as negative ego to talk about what we are.
Join me in the self-confession of yours. It's not vain. It's healthy. It's important for your next step, whichever direction that it takes you.
// posted by Annette @ 10:37 a.m. 